Podcasts
You are allowed to want small things. You are allowed to desire very little. You are allowed to seek simple experiences. You are allowed to follow clear paths. You do not have to better yourself. You do not have to progress.
You are allowed to want big things. You are allowed to desire everything. You are allowed to seek complexity and a variety of experiences. You are allowed to carve your own path. You can want to be your best version. You can discipline yourself so that you feel and become aware of your own progress.
If you can be honest with yourself about your pursuit, believe in your capacity to obtain it – however big or small – while also acknowledging the odds and difficulties, attempt it with conviction, and remain aligned with the result you envision and the honesty with which you pursue it, you will experience satisfaction and growth that arise from unexpected places, and you will emerge as a person you can be proud of with known points of reference and knowledge that you created out of your own experience instead of tips you bought from a podcaster that you desperately re-preach to your peers in hopes that it will eventually calm you by explaining the reason behind the discomfort you feel about the complex nature of existence and your inability to tolerate that which you can’t explain. Try responding to complexity with kindness and curiosity. And make your own podcast.